if any of you still read my blog, i've moved to

http://thelittleblackbunny.blogspot.com/

que sera sera

feeling kinda blue lately.
i hate the feeling of being misjudged by the people around me, the people i love.
i cant promise you anything,
i just can say,
que sera sera, whatever will be, it will be.

lately i've been losing sleep, dreaming about the things that we could be ♥

:)

that person who makes you smile over silly things, when your world was collapsing :)

yeongwonhan geon jeoldae eobseo

nothing ever lasts forever
in the end, you changed
there is no reason, no sincerity
take away such a thing as love
tonight, I’ll be crooked

leave me alone
i was alone anyway
i have no one, everything is meaningless
take away the sugar-coated comfort
tonight, I’ll be crooked

I scream and get dizzy
I vent out of boredom to other couples
I start fights for no reason like a town gangster
sometimes, I purposely shake my leg, crookedly
the main characters of the movie called this world is you and me
a lonely island, lost and wandering
the empty streets are filled with those who are alone
unlike my heart, the weather is so damn nice

I used to believe in you alone and I was happy
but like a joke, I am left alone
you used to promise me with your pinky finger
but in the end

nothing ever lasts forever
in the end, you changed
there is no reason, no sincerity
take away such a thing as love
tonight, I’ll be crooked

leave me alone
i was alone anyway
i have no one, everything is meaningless
take away the sugar-coated comfort
tonight, I’ll be crooked

I’ll put on thick eyeliner, use a whole can of hairspray
leather pants, leather jacket with a frown
I want to hide my pain and become even more crooked
so you can feel sorry, I’ll spit toward the sky
you’re scared of my crude words and my rough eyes
but actually, I’m afraid, I want to go back but I have nowhere to go
I want to love but no one to love, what am I supposed to do?
I can’t turn it back

I used to believe in you alone and I was happy
but like a joke, I am left alone
you used to promise me with your pinky finger
but in the end

nothing ever lasts forever
in the end, you changed
there is no reason, no sincerity
take away such a thing as love
tonight, I’ll be crooked

leave me alone
i was alone anyway
i have no one, everything is meaningless
take away the sugar-coated comfort
tonight, I’ll be crooked

will you not say anything for me tonight?
I didn’t know being alone would be this hard (I miss you)
will you be my friend tonight?
on this good day, this beautiful day, this day where I miss you
tonight, I’ll be crooked

最烂的理由是你配不上我

the earth is round :)

hi, almost one year i didnt blog, how's everyone doing? :)
this month, there's a big change in my life.
hope it will really help me to be more mature :)
buddha bless always :)

this is the last sem i'm here, hopefully !
i really hope everything goes right, and i can leave this place.
it's not that i wont miss this place, but, it's time to move on right?
i've been thinking a lot since last sem.
what am i going to do after graduation?
was planning to go taiwan to study mandarin for one year.
though, it is not priority right now.
my priority is to find a job after i'm done.
i have burdened my parents for years, and i have come to an age where i can already pay myself.
although mom agrees to let me to go to taiwan, but i think i shouldnt be that selfish and take advantage from them.
it's time to grow up ! :)
i know i'm a spendthrift, and sometimes i do feel like i'm not ready for that responsibility.
but, if i keep on waiting, when will it be the right time?
people might think i'm a princess, useless and wont be able to work.
well, people judge from appearance dont they?
i might be spoiled, but i've never thought of not working.
i always think that i'll earn money, a lot of, and give my parents better life.
they have gone through a lot.
they started from nothing until now :)
i might still dont have that mood for tidying, or studying.
but as i said, there's no right time, i just gotta do it.

buddha bless us all.

"as long as we have the will, i believe we can retrieve what we've lost. and after retrieved, i'll cherish it even more."
"after all that has happened, can we really go back to the starting point?"

"of course, the earth is round. no matter how far we go, we'll be back at the starting point." -- poetic justice.