gettinq on my nerves.

it has been a lonq time that i didnt post any fights in my relationship.
but guess what?
yes, this post is about it.
since i hvnt posted any, it doesnt mean it didnt happen.
it happens like everytime, everyday.
sometimes i just feel really fucked up with all of this mess.
hv u ever experienced b4,
when all you do is just worryinq about he doenst finish his assignments n ask him to do, yet, he yells at you?
when you call him to wake up regardinq to his class n assignments, yet, he yells at you?
when you ask him to stop his games n start doinq assignments, yet, he yells at you?
seriously, what does he think i am?
who does he think he is?

if you've nv appreciated and respected me, dont you ever think i'm gonna do the same for this relationship.
you may think i'm immature to blog such a post like this, but WHATEVER.
you're really gettinq on my nerves.

寂寞

今天不知道为什么，突然性情很差很差。

莫名其妙的想哭。

无原无顾的很不开心。

突然觉得很孤独，很孤独。

我是怎么了呢？

有时，微笑当中，心里还是一片空白。

有时，人群当中，心里还是寂寞的。

到底人生需要的是什么？

每个人都在跑，我可不可以慢慢走呢？

我真的觉得好累好累。

这个世界，可不可以休息一下？

你转得太快，

我跟不上，
却跌到了。

p.s.: 很久没写中文了。觉得自己的中文退步了很多。

month of blessings ♥

hellooooooo, howdy? :D
wht i cld say is, may is really my month! ♥
thank you wont be enough to express my gratefulness to buddha.

20 years ago, on 6th of may, my mom brought me to this life.
after years hv passed, eventually i'm 20th now.
when ppl say i'm no longer adolescent, but an adult.
is kind of bitter thinkinq that from now on, i hv to be more mature and more responsible.
i really miss life when it was so easy back there.
no worries. no tears. no heartbreaks. no betrayals. no hurtful lies.
yet, i still appreciate the life tht has been given to me ♥

my mom is also born in may.
happy belated bornday mom ♥
i used to be so embarrassed to say happy bornday to mom or bought her anythinq.
idk why. prbbly it's just because our family aren't used to be tht way.
though ppl alwys said to cherish everyone beside at the moment cause noone knows wht will hppn the next minute, i still cant. it's just too awkward =/
nevertheless this year, i asked a friend of mine to deliver a cake to my house and planned to buy her sth with my first salary =)

may is also a month where two of my besties, inq and mami come to earth tenth years ago.
vesak day also falls in may every year.
n for this year, i've got my first real job in may!
told ya, may is just so blessed! ♥
just right the minute whn i gave up, someone called and asked me to go to interview the next day, and i was accepted right away :)

and everything has just turned to be so lovely this month ♥

ok, let the photos take the role to tell :p

the cake.

it's yummy ♥

attacked right after i came back from work.

excuse my so stupid-not-enough-sleep face =='

the culprits!

♥ 06.05.11 ♥

pressies from bubu ♥

bali's souvenir and handmade danbo :p

by kevin, with his brand new intuos :p

zanmai again! XD

headinq to watch fast 5 =)

ommanipadmehum (ओं मणिपद्मे हूं)

this rinq has been with me for almost 3 years =)

with eeyore, vdae present ♥

my head looks lonq here, dont you think so?

 these photobooths were taken in april.

just some of them are not uploaded in fb.

credit goes to connie's macbookpro.

silly faces! XD

do u notice anythinq? XD

LMAO!

this was taken yesterday.

helpinq kevin and ellys to be their model.

turns out my faces are so weird =.=

i'm bad at it. sorry =(

and and and! sorry again to abandon my blog!
workinq everyday from 8.30 am to 6++ pm just drain my energy.
though, i'll try to post more.
just stay tune and thanks for readinq anyway =)

the situation is too peaceful, that i'm so afraid of a big storm cominq.

formspring.me

ask me :D

let's talk trash.

okay, let's talk trash in the middle of the night.
i'm cluttered with white iphone4 and iphone5.
me myself is so into white i4, like really. i HEART white! :D
on the other hand, there are RUMOURS sayinq i5 will be launched this cominq june, or later september.
is it black? is it black n white? anyone-from-apple can you please make an announcement! ck!
some people also said that the launchinq of i5 wld be delayed as they're promotinq white i4.
aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa =='
any suggestionsssssss?
ok, i knw it's a prep talk which is so not important.
i'm just so confused, like really, for my phone-to-be for like xx-years-gonna-be.

p.s.: dont you ever talk to me like tht! cause for real, it makes me loathe you so much!

high school is the best moment in life, like seriously.

little girl was hopinq to grow up real fast,
so she didnt need to go to school.
so she didnt need to do any homeworks.
so she didnt need to sit on any exams.
so she didnt need to go to any tuitions.
so she could go overseas.
so she could escape from what she thought a miserable life was.
so she could be free.
so she could live her life.


little girl does grow up and starts to realize,
life is not as simple as she thought it was.
beinq an adult is super sucks.
high school is the best moment in life, like seriously.


do you still remember?

with our form teacher, Mr Ben Henry :)

 3 science 5 ♥

the girls with Mr. "Fortune Teller" Margenthira :)

 

with our beloved mother, Ms. Rose Erny :)

take a look at Fahmi's pose! XD

the name tags ♥

with Mr. Ponirin :)

 Junior High School 3-6 of 2006 ♥

3-6 with form teacher, Ms. "Goodie-Goodie" Ervina :D

with the besties :D see how the little girl's hugged yus! ♥♥♥♥♥

 with FRND! the little girl's most precious ones ♥♥♥♥♥

 noone can replace the memories ♥♥♥♥♥

 

the little girl's sweethearts ♥♥♥♥♥

 3 of the little girl's best mates in class! see how silly they are! ♥♥♥♥♥

p.s.: the pics are taken durinq last days in school :'(

translatinq those little voices in ur mind into words ♥

hi folks! hahaha.
subsequently i've succeed to force myself to blog.
i dont knw wht i've been busyinq since i reached here. LOL.
life has gone ups n downs all the time.

b4 bustinq into wht i've been through for these 3 weeks,
i've been thinkinq of sth.
actually, wht do people think about blogginq?
found out tht some might think this folk blogs just to publicize his or her personal life.
n people read one's blog just for food for gossip.
if u do read my blog in motive of it, let me tell u wht, be my guest :)

cause i cldnt care much!

wht holdinq me up for blogginq is, i really heart to write ♥
in my apprehension, words are excessively magical, arent they?
thus, i love to pour wht i experience and feel to words :)
likewise, it also helps me to enrich my vocabs n reminisce wht i've been through. *apologize for my lack of vocab though >.<*
some folks prefer to write general n supportive blog, though i prefer to share wht i like n my personal experiences with hopes people will learn sth from it :]
i do believe thr are lessons taught in every incident. hahah.

writinq is the simplest thinq to be done, aside from talkinq.
i knw some says they cant write.
but hey, writinq is wht u do everyday since u're younq.
how cant u write?
not like drawinq or playinq musical instruments which talks about talent,

writinq is about translatinq those little voices in ur mind into words! :)

ok, i start to murmurinq. haha.
wht i really wanna say is, why dont u start to write?
everyday of yours is a bless and priceless, then i think it's worth to be story-told :D

p.s : for those who read people's blogs just to gossip around, just stop being a biatch n go get a life perhaps? i'm sure u've got much more precious things to do either. LOL.

p.p.s : though i love to write, sometimes my hands are just too lazy to do their works! :p