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Saturday, November 26, 2011
Thursday, October 27, 2011
the life i'll live.
it's 27th of october. time flies. fiuhh.
i'm facinq the final of this semester.
but, i'm so addicted to gossip girl at the moment!
addiction sure will lead me to graveyard, but i cant help it :'(
though, still have to stop immediately no matter what.
so, had this conversation when we had our lunch just now.
what to do after graduation?
bubu's classmates are graduatinq this december.
my classmates are graduatinq next year.
my housemates and friends are graduatinq july 2013.
n i have to wait till december 2013 for my own graduation,
due to the 2 subjects i failed last year.
talkinq about sad, of course i am.
as i'm the last one who will be here.
sayinq to my mom i want to transfer in my last year.
my mom said, see how it'll go later.
though i dont know whether curtin will accept me or not, as i've ever failed.
but then my sister said,
it's not that they dont want to send me there.
but my own self should be very obvious how my body condition is =(
so, back to the topic.
what to do after all of us graduate?
bubu is goinq to apply job in sG.
kevin is aiminq to hollywood.
cees still doesnt know what she'll do.
as for me, was thinkinq to work for a year, n continue master.
but, i myself know i'm still so interested in literature and journalism stuff,
which goes around writing and languages.
i may think i'm goinq to take the course again right now,
but who knows what will happen in 2 years time?
what i know is, i need to finish this first.
it's not that i dont like this course.
i choose it by myself.
but i still find out what i'm goinq to do for the rest of my life.
am not gonna marry someone and stay at home for sure.
some people might think i'm insane or whatsoever,
as people are finishinq their studies and goinq to earn money in no time,
yet i'm still figurinq out which way to take.
i just want to be right, to be satisfied of my life.
after all, life is more than money.
well, just hope for the best, shant we?
may buddha bless me,
enlighten me in every path i take,
and enlighten every livinq creatures =)
sabbe satta bhavantu sukhitatta.
architecture surely accelerates aging! T________T
my eyebags! :'(
the 2011 photo was taken in april, now it's worse.
and i dont take photo as much as i used to, due to the dummy face :'(
hope the sacrifices are all worth it!
n i'll have full recovery in my holiday!
i'm facinq the final of this semester.
but, i'm so addicted to gossip girl at the moment!
addiction sure will lead me to graveyard, but i cant help it :'(
though, still have to stop immediately no matter what.
so, had this conversation when we had our lunch just now.
what to do after graduation?
bubu's classmates are graduatinq this december.
my classmates are graduatinq next year.
my housemates and friends are graduatinq july 2013.
n i have to wait till december 2013 for my own graduation,
due to the 2 subjects i failed last year.
talkinq about sad, of course i am.
as i'm the last one who will be here.
sayinq to my mom i want to transfer in my last year.
my mom said, see how it'll go later.
though i dont know whether curtin will accept me or not, as i've ever failed.
but then my sister said,
it's not that they dont want to send me there.
but my own self should be very obvious how my body condition is =(
so, back to the topic.
what to do after all of us graduate?
bubu is goinq to apply job in sG.
kevin is aiminq to hollywood.
cees still doesnt know what she'll do.
as for me, was thinkinq to work for a year, n continue master.
but, i myself know i'm still so interested in literature and journalism stuff,
which goes around writing and languages.
i may think i'm goinq to take the course again right now,
but who knows what will happen in 2 years time?
what i know is, i need to finish this first.
it's not that i dont like this course.
i choose it by myself.
but i still find out what i'm goinq to do for the rest of my life.
am not gonna marry someone and stay at home for sure.
some people might think i'm insane or whatsoever,
as people are finishinq their studies and goinq to earn money in no time,
yet i'm still figurinq out which way to take.
i just want to be right, to be satisfied of my life.
after all, life is more than money.
well, just hope for the best, shant we?
may buddha bless me,
enlighten me in every path i take,
and enlighten every livinq creatures =)
sabbe satta bhavantu sukhitatta.
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2009
2010
2011
architecture surely accelerates aging! T________T
my eyebags! :'(
the 2011 photo was taken in april, now it's worse.
and i dont take photo as much as i used to, due to the dummy face :'(
hope the sacrifices are all worth it!
n i'll have full recovery in my holiday!
Friday, October 14, 2011
let's tie the rope and play hanqman.
hi bloggie.
was thinkinq to reduce writinq anythinq negative again.
yet, it is all the negatives occurred around me.
so i guess, it's anthr complaininq post? hahahha.
i dont knw wht hv gotten into me.
it's just i feel what i felt last year.
remember? the quit thingy and blablabla.
actually, my family was okay back thr with me, who wanted to change course.
ehmm, kinda change to 'want' now.
yet, i missed my family generous offer last year.
n i'm not gonna ask for it this year.
how could i?
after another year, another cash spent.
i cant do it to them, it just so so unfair.
n yeah, i hv a life n a bad behavior to settle.
i cant just run away everytime i wish to, can i?
so, this headache, hv been torturinq me for the whole week.
i lose my appetite, feelinq nauseous everytime.
accordinq to my other friend, prbbly i'm just too stress.
n tht's wht keep my headache around.
well, it sounds make sense to me.
but i dont know how to deal with it.
think it's kind of traumatic sequence.
most of all, i didnt submit my a tech, which was supposed to be last monday.
*p.s. i dreamt of him sayinq it's ok for me to submit on this cominq monday, which is really just a dream =)
i skipped most of my classes this week, well, only entered one which held exam.
i only hv my design tutorial once.
hooray to me!
keep on wonderinq how i will end this sem, hope i'll survive.
i've been turninq my life to a mess.
n am tryinq to settle now.
it's just, i'm afraid if i am late.
well well, let's tighten up my jaw n do the effinq assignments.
or.
let's tie the rope and play hanqman, shan't we?
was thinkinq to reduce writinq anythinq negative again.
yet, it is all the negatives occurred around me.
so i guess, it's anthr complaininq post? hahahha.
i dont knw wht hv gotten into me.
it's just i feel what i felt last year.
remember? the quit thingy and blablabla.
actually, my family was okay back thr with me, who wanted to change course.
ehmm, kinda change to 'want' now.
yet, i missed my family generous offer last year.
n i'm not gonna ask for it this year.
how could i?
after another year, another cash spent.
i cant do it to them, it just so so unfair.
n yeah, i hv a life n a bad behavior to settle.
i cant just run away everytime i wish to, can i?
so, this headache, hv been torturinq me for the whole week.
i lose my appetite, feelinq nauseous everytime.
accordinq to my other friend, prbbly i'm just too stress.
n tht's wht keep my headache around.
well, it sounds make sense to me.
but i dont know how to deal with it.
think it's kind of traumatic sequence.
most of all, i didnt submit my a tech, which was supposed to be last monday.
*p.s. i dreamt of him sayinq it's ok for me to submit on this cominq monday, which is really just a dream =)
i skipped most of my classes this week, well, only entered one which held exam.
i only hv my design tutorial once.
hooray to me!
keep on wonderinq how i will end this sem, hope i'll survive.
i've been turninq my life to a mess.
n am tryinq to settle now.
it's just, i'm afraid if i am late.
well well, let's tighten up my jaw n do the effinq assignments.
or.
let's tie the rope and play hanqman, shan't we?
Tuesday, October 11, 2011
what do you want from me?
feel like wanna scream alrd.
started from sorethroat --> headache --> migrain --> nausea --> feel like vomittinq --> powerless --> runninq nose.
erica said i might get dengue fever as the illness comes and goes.
please please pleaseeeeeee, it's really not a good time for it =(
i only want to finish my assignments.
THEY ARE TONS.
sick = cannot do = assignments are piling up ='(
promise a lecturer will submit on tuesday, as i told him wont finish on monday.
yet, today got no consciousness to do it.
wronq measurement = redo, redo and redo.
i dont knw how many boards i hv produced, but with wronq measurement.
moreover my design assignments ='(
though lecturers are very generous to give me extension due to my hands last time, still i need to finish it quickly!
i think the lecturers might want to kill me rightaway.
culture exam on wednesday.
OHMYGOD!
body, what do you want from me? =(
started from sorethroat --> headache --> migrain --> nausea --> feel like vomittinq --> powerless --> runninq nose.
erica said i might get dengue fever as the illness comes and goes.
please please pleaseeeeeee, it's really not a good time for it =(
i only want to finish my assignments.
THEY ARE TONS.
sick = cannot do = assignments are piling up ='(
promise a lecturer will submit on tuesday, as i told him wont finish on monday.
yet, today got no consciousness to do it.
wronq measurement = redo, redo and redo.
i dont knw how many boards i hv produced, but with wronq measurement.
moreover my design assignments ='(
though lecturers are very generous to give me extension due to my hands last time, still i need to finish it quickly!
i think the lecturers might want to kill me rightaway.
culture exam on wednesday.
OHMYGOD!
body, what do you want from me? =(
Sunday, October 09, 2011
home.
when i am in my lowest,
i wish i were at home.
cause i cant do anythinq right now.
i need to go home.
i wish i were at home.
cause i cant do anythinq right now.
i need to go home.
Saturday, October 08, 2011
perfect time
what people see is the surface.
what i feel is way deeper.
afraid of what type of person will come to my life is not a fear.
as in the present, it is such a mess.
there's no reason to hold on to a string.
when loves are nowhere to be felt.
what i feel is way deeper.
afraid of what type of person will come to my life is not a fear.
as in the present, it is such a mess.
there's no reason to hold on to a string.
when loves are nowhere to be felt.
when words are nowhere to be useful.
it's a perfect time to end.
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