just feel like i'm so out of here.
elsewhere could be much better perhaps?
i'm dying to be in far far away, experiencing sth different.
here has no big differences as wht i had in medan.
people are the same, environments are quite similar, food, okay, noone can win against medan i guess.
i'm just too bored and too fucked up with all of the dramas, the attitudes and so on.
wondering whr's a place for me to suit perfectly without trying so hard to fit in? hahahha.
my life sounds pathetic and miserable i know =______=
just now, i deleted like a hundred of friends from my fb account.
knowing that to have known-people-only will take ages, i deactivated it.
so i made a new account.
n turns up tht i cannot verify the new account! i dunno wht hppnd =______=
n i cant add my friends. they're like banning me for adding too many not-yet-approved friend requests.
i was like @.@
when someone creates a new account, of course they're adding everyone they know n it's not like 2 or 3 people, you moron facebook!
then i just cant help myself to activate my old account =.=
i realize that, actually i like to notice posts, even from unknowns.
status about how they're feeling, it's kind of sharing after all.
so for the 100++ i have "accidentally" deleted, i'm sorry =(
you can call me bad or arrogant or whatsoever,
but i was just so emo this afternoon and thinking to live in my own world,
and i regret it, i'm not that 'kind' of person after all.
yet, i dunno all of the names i've deleted =='
thousands of apologies =[
i'm so looking for the offer my mom gave me last time, doing my final year in curtin. *i'm taking architecture course in limkokwing under curtin*
i think i gotta work my ass off for this one and a half year so i can transfer there.
i heard that not every student is accepted, though there are several seniors who did their final year there.
i remember one of them tell me last year, "if you really can afford it, you should move to perth, it's just so different, the methods, the lecturers, the quality."
i really wish i can transfer there asap.
though if i really think of it clearly, it will be much safer to go there at my final year, whereas i only have two left out modules.
aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa. *galau ga jelas sendiri*
i dunno, feel like screaming this stupid feeling out of me.
why should life be so hard?
btw for you!
i wont care too much!
or even like i want to care?
i'll just stay out of you and stay in a small little world of mine :)
wht's the point to harm myself anyway? LOL.
p.s: i know i just posted sth about dharma the day before and saying the word f*ck now. well, it's just me. i'm complicated like i've written. i can be an angel, but i can be the devil when you're pushing me too far baby :)
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