move forward. nv look back. c:

olaa, how's everyone doinq?
i know my blog is so dead hahahah
but you know, i hardly blog in my hometown
super damn slow internet connection always succeeds to stay me out of computer LOL

so, i'm now single

hahaha i know what you're thinking, but it's true
yeps, i did think of possibilities that we cld get back tgthr
i even told one of my best best friends, that if we're really destined tgthr, 2 years later wont be late to be tgthr
as i really think to focus deeply in my education at the moment n both of us cldnt really work the relationship out
n my best friend told him .___.

i was like, ohmygod, the word i said, is possibility, how if i fall for anthr guy n he really does wait for me?
though, before you guys think i'm such a cold-hearted one to break up with someone who loved me very much, let me tell you tht, he felt relieved of the break up
i was hurt, truly, but then i know i made a right choice to break up then
n obviously i know i shld really move on, and not trapped between the past n the future
so voilaa
thanks for these two years, and sorry if i've been such a mess to your life :)

oh yeah, we're still friends though

life here is not getting any better
i think i'm invisible for my housemates and some friends as they've never asked me whether i wld join them out or not
well, it's really not a new issue actually, it's been more than a year, there were ups and downs
i dunno wht prblms they have with me n i've never experienced sth like this since junior high

honestly, i was hurt and sad tht i've even thought of runninq away from here

but thanks to my friends' supports tht i can get through it till now
the intention of i'm writinq about this is not to offense anyone, sorry if u feel so
it's just i'm really tryinq to deal with it instead of avoidinq it

i know i'm just a person with too many bad habits, so i wont force anyone to accept me :)

not to sound pathetic, but now i am really on my own now

problems exist so tht i can be stronger and stronger

i'll deal with it, i'll be okay with it

i got friends, just not kind of best friends which i got in hometown
so basically, i'll treat people as how they treat me

i might be cryinq few days, weeks, months after this

i might feel tired

though i know there are still many people who are supportinq me
n i know, if i ever make through it, in the end i'll be a better and stronger person than i've been :)

"not all ppl can understand the way i am. some ppl hate me, while others love me. but i love the way i dont pretend to be someone i'm not, just to impress anyone." -quoted.

"bad thinqs are always goinq to happen in life, people will hurt you, but you cant use that as an excuse to hurt someone back." -quoted.

p.s.: if you read my blog just to gossip about anythinq, just be it, i'm happy and proud i've given you somethinq to talk about with your friends :)