a love letter to blia yad ♥

well, prbbly it's too late.
yet still, better late than nv right? hhahaha.
so, happy belated new year everyone! :D

first of all, thnkx to Buddha to still give me a chance to go back to s3s for this old n new celebration.
never forget venerable Light that make this all possible :)
n thnkx to all of the committees, ex-committees, volunteers and members!
it's the 4th anniversary i've passed through with yad.
my first one was the 2nd blia yad's anniversary on old n new party 07/08.
it marked i've been 3 years thr. wow! time flies, doesnt it? hahha.


ppl said the first is the unforgettable ♥ 
as the matter of fact, it is!
i've joined bunches of events organized by yad, still, the most amazinq one for me is old n new party 07/08.
i was in unite group, with xiao dui fu tanaka, shunny, juandy n livana :)
to be honest, it's the best group ever i've joined! hahah.
there are campinq, games, mask party, bonfire n heaps more. hahah.
although at the end of the day we didnt win anythinq, yet, we are told we are what we named!

UNITE! we are the most unified group! hahaha. yey! :D

 

 

next event joint was 2008 harmonious cncrt.

it's such a lonq prjct. practicinq for around 5mnths.

frankly, if it's not bcause of the cncrt, prbbly i was out from yad alrd. hahah.

really thnkx to Buddha to keep me still :)

at tht time, i learnt 4 shou yu n modern dance. nearly got into dayak, but then vina took the chance. hahah.

n i also found out sth tht attracted me till the next year :)

i only got few photos from phone cam. hahah.

some photos are from rehearsal n i dunno whr the credit goes to. 

  

then, here it came, conference at taiwan!

tht time, i was only askinq, without any hope dad wld allow, n yet, he did! :DD

i was asked to perform a traditional dance alonq with some friends.

ehmm. didnt really rmmbr wht dance it is. simanqgulunq? =='

ok, forgotten. hahah. n i didnt dance well. so, i was substituted.

kinda sad tht time, but it's really not suitable for me. so, nth else i can do =\

we went to honqkonq disneyland for the first two days, then gotten to taiwan.

we've gone so many places, taipei, hualian, gao xionq, n else whr i cldnt mention. hahah.

at the end of the trip, we also stayed in gentinq.

at fo guanq shan, i gained a lot of thinqs whr i cant transform it to words :)

we've also met a lot of yaders from other countries. wht a rare opportunity!

i skipped independence day, tamarin tht year. geez! =='
so it's old n new party again! =)
ahh! b4 tht! i just recall back. if am not mistaken, thr's no tamarin tht year.
on the contrary, thr's dharma tour, sanctification of the 33 guan yin, master xinq yun's visit.
too bad, i got no pics of it =='
oh! n the sanctification of the 33 guan yin? i got inq as bestie tht time! :D 
after tht, it's sort of fo guanq hui event. not really clear about it, but here's my pic with the girls n inq. hahaha.

back to old n new 08/09 with the theme of disneyland! :D

thr are groups named minnie mouse, donald duck, tinkerbell, aladdin, peter pan, pinocchio, mickey mouse n winnie the pooh.

i'm in tinkerbell with nancy n stella as xiao dui fu :)

honestly speakinq, i spent most of the time with everyone i knw than with my group.

but, tht time, everyone mixed! n everyone is a narcissist! they just kept attackinq the camera!

within all of those activities, one year has passed.

pretty quick, huh?

next one is chinese new year.

instead of receivinq anqpao in mdn, i went to s3s to help help :)

it's june! n it's che-15.

ehmm, tc alwys closes on che-1 n also 15.

thus, committees planned sunday class out of town!

it's in pakam tc! with mp3 =)

after the sutra readinq, lectures n games. we went to the beach! yeah yeah yeahh! =DD

 n now it's jalan sehat! hahaha.

actually, i forgot is it b4 or after pakam. hehehe.

held in multatuli. guess wht! the night b4, i didnt sleep.

givinq hands in inq's house, preparinq the thinqs. hahah.

i was occupied at juandy's burger stand, called circle of life :)

well, then i left to kL for my study.

i missed ID day celebration which i wish to attend the most :'(

n to tell u guys. i didnt feel homesick when i arrived thr, n i didnt shed a single tear.

but my first tear dropped when i saw ID day's video.

it made me realize, how i missed blia yad so much, how i wanted so bad to be part of it.

nevertheless, i hv to tighten up my jaw n live my life.

but! i'm cominq home on idul fitri. hahah.

sddnly my dad asked me to come homee! yey!

i didnt join tamarin, but i wen thr with my family. n met inq, wN n son thr :)

nahh, back to old n new again!

this time, blia yad made a different celebration.

it's festival! whr thr's no groupinq like usual.

only volunteers were thr, performinq, servinq mankind n so on :)

met a lot of new ppl as i wasnt in town for half year!

responsible for sellinq porridge n ca ye dan, it's egg boiled with herbal tea. i heart it ♥

performinq dayak dance, modern dance n shou yu.

at first wasnt so sure with dayak, but then, i just heart it =D

nah nahh. again after tht, it's cny.

but i got no pics! sob sob :'(

actually i got lahh, but it's my self portrait, or others.

no photos of group. hhahha.

well, there is. but not in my hand, it belonqs to yad's documentation =)

n as u all knw, i headed back to kL.

so yeah, i've been absent for a year.

cominq back, n join old n new parteyyy 10/11 again! =D

i came back late, so no volunteer's job available. hahaha. registerinq as participant though.

ehmm, the photos are in son's cam. n i hvnt got it. sorry =='

woww. such a lonq post huh?

hope u didnt get bored =)

by this post, i intend to speak out everythinq on my mind.

i realized, once the thinq is gone, u cant get it back. it's real. hahahha.

remmbr my last post about the clock's tickinq?

my clock stops. it's also happened in blia yad.

everyone keeps movinq on. old ppl hv gone. new ppl are thr.

not to be hypocrite, human beinqs are socialist n so do i.

i believe friendships are important, includinq in an organization.

like i've told b4, cncrt is wht tied me up 2 years ago.

initially, i was only havinq fun in the old n new event. i've got my friends with me.

but sunday class? it was only me. ok, with few friends, but not those 'closed' friends.

signinq up to be volunteers for the cncrt was also without any seriousness.

gettinq bored week by week, but wht? i've signed up for it. i had to deal with it.

practiced whenever we're asked. then passed through the cncrt smoothly.

goinq abroad with them. even after my dad allowed. i've considered for several times.

why? cause i hardly fit in. they are friends for years, n hey, i'm just the newbie.

yet, i still joined. first was a lonely trip. then thanks to livia n livana for acceptinq me =)

friends are really a crucial factor in one's life.

last sunday, a new committee said, "she's not goinq to tc for a lonq time anymore."

n i simply replied, "well, 旧的不去，新的不来 -- means, if the old one doesnt go, then the new one wont come."

then he claimed, "but, isnt it good to hv old n new ones tgthr? then thr's no substitution, but addinq."

i told him, it's impossible. but he n the other guy didnt agree.

well, seriously, it's like the nature law alrd.

plus, i'm very very obvious about it.

why in an organization like this, ppl will leave?

mostly for ppl who hv gone abroad, they come back to mdn, but not to blia yad again.

here, i'm gonna share wht i knw, from myself n other ppl.

for a overseas student like me, cominq home n went to blia yad is quite not as much interestinq as we used to.

meetinq new ppl is one thinq, but seeinq those new ppl with ur friends hvinq conversation u dont understand is anthr thinq.

to be truth, these two times whn i come back, i'm not as comfortable as i used to anymore.

thr are times, i felt my destiny with yad was over.

thr's no place for me anymore. i'm not part of 'family', i'm just a stranger.

however, again n again, i still come back to s3s.

this time old n new party, was also the new committees inauguration.

was so doubt to join at the beginninq, yet still joininq it.

though, almost change my mind at the last minute of the departure day.

as when group gatherinq, i really didnt get the feelinq.

new committees, i knw them, but tht's all. i just got disconnected from them.

the point is, i felt nth.

thinkinq to let it be the last event for me in yad.

but, i guess Buddha really loves me.

everytime i meant to let go, i forced myself to join the event.

tellinq myself, i want to search for the feelinq again.

the magical feelinq i've felt for every event i've joined.

n yes, it alwys brinqs me back to blia yad =)

fetchinq this new year, i knw for sure i've been more mature than i was.

this time, i've made up my mind.

for these past 3 years, blia yad hv given me a LOT to my life.

THANK YOU wont be enough.

blia yad has given me a place called home.

blia yad has given me a group of people called family.

n i knw, i do love them.

yet, i cant be hypocrite n say i wont leave one day.

mayb i will, mayb i wont, who knws?

however, as now i'm still feelinq to protect yad, then i'll give my best to it.

i'll appreciate n enjoy every second i hv now.

so when i've become a real fool, at least, my story books are colourful with the beautiful memories :)

Buddha's dharma is not only an ordinary lesson, tht u learn n forgot.

when u make a deep thought of it, then it's the way of life! which makes us live as a better person!

really really thank you to suhu Light, without you, thr's be nth like this.

n of course all of the committees, shi xionq, shi jie, members n everyone!

i called s3s a home.

i called blia yad a family.

how about you? =)

p.s.: whn i was in my first year, i nearly quit. thnks to someone tht scolded me. i hv no idea u did it on purpose to pull me back or not, however, still thank you ♥