寻找那个安全感。

我不懂，是不是我想太多了？
但是，我心里就是这样的款乱。
我就好像站在一条线，随时都会失去我的balance.
现在，唯一hold主我的是你那句“我爱你”。
真的这是那个 ：（
我每一天，每一夜，都在寻找那个安全感。

definitely not okay :(

ok, let me tell u wht hv hppned to me these few days.
i'm still struggling so hard to finish all my assignments and yet, they're still thr, like they will nv ever disappear!
haixxxxxxxx.
the worst one is d comm, it is drawing.
ok, i dont knw.
everytime i try to finish it, come out i hardly finish one.
n like i'm too too lucky, i fall sick.
sore throat at first, then flu, my head aint stop spinninq.
+ my allergies are up n i got red spots on my face :(
i'm not having appetite to eat, even i hv a good-tasted meal this afternoon.

wew, wew, wew :(

n hey you.
i dont knw why i cried last night.
i laugh whn i'm happy, n i just cry whn i'm sad. ok, not everytime whn i'm sad.
about wht i'm gonna tell u last night, i dunno.
was it the reason why i cried?
i just feel like, it's sth i want to tell u.
this afernoon, i really had no mood to tell.

I HV NV EVER CRIED PURPOSELY.

seriously, ur q did hurt me just now.
do u think i'm a girl who will cry out in front of anyone to get attention?
ur q made u sound u dont understand me AT ALL. 


i've been asked so by u mars-living-creatures twice.
wht on earth make u think i'm such a girl like tht?

if u've asked so, thn dont wonder why i nv cry in front of u.

a not-like-holiday holiday!

bloggie, sorry for neglecting you for these 2 weeks.
my assignments are just endless. *sigh*
n now i'm havinq a not-like-holiday holiday!
this one-week-holiday is not much different from the other weeks, whereas i'm buried by assignments :((
imagine, i've been workinq on the bridge with my group members for 8 hours/day in these three days.
n last night, i also did my culture journal from 11.30 pm to 4.30 am, n i just finished 4 n a half pages.

just kill me pleaseeeeeeeeee! >.<

n now i'm supposed to do my journal, considering tmrw i'll go to berjaya hills with baobei, felix, ellys n ivan, but here i am, not even touchinq the pencil n papers :(
i wanna scream out loud, i'm just too tired with all of these assignmentssssssssssss!
tmrw will be my only trip for this holiday. *pity me* :(
i'm goinq to breathe the mountain fresh air through my flesh n bones! huff!



move to anthr story. hahha.
helen posted a video of us to fb.
oh goshhhhh!

i really miss those moments >.<

i still recall it clearly, the first time we went to brastagi tghtr, 22 june 2006.
from tht day onward, we're a gank.
n thr were too many too many things hppn between us.
all of those are undescribeably amazinq!
love you all guys.
just, farewell is alwys thr =(

i really hope those memories will alwys remain in each heart of us.

"as we go on, we remember
all the times we had together
and as our lives change from whatever
we will still be FRIENDS FOREVER ♥"

vitamin c - graduation (friends forever)
 

p.s.: i'm happy that inqgok made a blog. so i can knw wht she's up to even i dnt hv time to chat with her (:

dead kitten bngoenq-inq D:

ok. i'm dead. i'm so dead.
the assignments are just too too many.
n i just feel tht they r endless. really.
i dont even hv any faith tht i can finish them :(
ohmygod.


i really hv to work more. i really do.
but how can i face the papers for every minute?
goshh. somebody add the time please!
make it 72 hours a day. please! geez! :(


n today is supposed to be a very annoyinq day.
but still, i'm tryinq to think positive, to look at the bright side.
even thr's no bright side.
ok, i'm complaininq n i'm tryinq to cheer myself up >:| 


these 2 days, he has been so down.
i wish i were thr to cheer him up.
hey dear. cheer up! i'm here :)
u'll be fine. u'll pass through this.
we will :)


"i've been alone so many nights now
and I've been waiting for the stars to fall
i keep holding out for what I don't know
to be with you
just to be with you ♥"


david archuleta - to be with you.