the life i'll live.

it's 27th of october. time flies. fiuhh.
i'm facinq the final of this semester.
but, i'm so addicted to gossip girl at the moment!
addiction sure will lead me to graveyard, but i cant help it :'(
though, still have to stop immediately no matter what.

so, had this conversation when we had our lunch just now.
what to do after graduation?
bubu's classmates are graduatinq this december.
my classmates are graduatinq next year.
my housemates and friends are graduatinq july 2013.
n i have to wait till december 2013 for my own graduation,
due to the 2 subjects i failed last year.

talkinq about sad, of course i am.
as i'm the last one who will be here.
sayinq to my mom i want to transfer in my last year.
my mom said, see how it'll go later.
though i dont know whether curtin will accept me or not, as i've ever failed.
but then my sister said,
it's not that they dont want to send me there.
but my own self should be very obvious how my body condition is =(

so, back to the topic.
what to do after all of us graduate?
bubu is goinq to apply job in sG.
kevin is aiminq to hollywood.
cees still doesnt know what she'll do.
as for me, was thinkinq to work for a year, n continue master.
but, i myself know i'm still so interested in literature and journalism stuff,
which goes around writing and languages.

i may think i'm goinq to take the course again right now,
but who knows what will happen in 2 years time?
what i know is, i need to finish this first.
it's not that i dont like this course.
i choose it by myself.
but i still find out what i'm goinq to do for the rest of my life.
am not gonna marry someone and stay at home for sure.

some people might think i'm insane or whatsoever,
as people are finishinq their studies and goinq to earn money in no time,
yet i'm still figurinq out which way to take.
i just want to be right, to be satisfied of my life.
after all, life is more than money.
well, just hope for the best, shant we?

may buddha bless me,
enlighten me in every path i take,
and enlighten every livinq creatures =)
sabbe satta bhavantu sukhitatta.

2008

2009

2010

2011

architecture surely accelerates aging! T________T
my eyebags! :'(
the 2011 photo was taken in april, now it's worse.
and i dont take photo as much as i used to, due to the dummy face :'(
hope the sacrifices are all worth it!
n i'll have full recovery in my holiday!

let's tie the rope and play hanqman.

hi bloggie.
was thinkinq to reduce writinq anythinq negative again.
yet, it is all the negatives occurred around me.
so i guess, it's anthr complaininq post? hahahha.

i dont knw wht hv gotten into me.
it's just i feel what i felt last year.
remember? the quit thingy and blablabla.
actually, my family was okay back thr with me, who wanted to change course.
ehmm, kinda change to 'want' now.
yet, i missed my family generous offer last year.
n i'm not gonna ask for it this year.
how could i?
after another year, another cash spent.
i cant do it to them, it just so so unfair.
n yeah, i hv a life n a bad behavior to settle.
i cant just run away everytime i wish to, can i?

so, this headache, hv been torturinq me for the whole week.
i lose my appetite, feelinq nauseous everytime.
accordinq to my other friend, prbbly i'm just too stress.
n tht's wht keep my headache around.
well, it sounds make sense to me.
but i dont know how to deal with it.
think it's kind of traumatic sequence.

most of all, i didnt submit my a tech, which was supposed to be last monday.
*p.s. i dreamt of him sayinq it's ok for me to submit on this cominq monday, which is really just a dream =)
i skipped most of my classes this week, well, only entered one which held exam.
i only hv my design tutorial once.
hooray to me!
keep on wonderinq how i will end this sem, hope i'll survive.

i've been turninq my life to a mess.
n am tryinq to settle now.
it's just, i'm afraid if i am late.
well well, let's tighten up my jaw n do the effinq assignments.
or.
let's tie the rope and play hanqman, shan't we?

what do you want from me?

feel like wanna scream alrd.
started from sorethroat --> headache --> migrain --> nausea --> feel like vomittinq --> powerless --> runninq nose.
erica said i might get dengue fever as the illness comes and goes.
please please pleaseeeeeee, it's really not a good time for it =(
i only want to finish my assignments.
THEY ARE TONS.
sick = cannot do = assignments are piling up ='(
promise a lecturer will submit on tuesday, as i told him wont finish on monday.
yet, today got no consciousness to do it.
wronq measurement = redo, redo and redo.
i dont knw how many boards i hv produced, but with wronq measurement.
moreover my design assignments ='(
though lecturers are very generous to give me extension due to my hands last time, still i need to finish it quickly!
i think the lecturers might want to kill me rightaway.
culture exam on wednesday.
OHMYGOD!
body, what do you want from me? =(

home.

when i am in my lowest,
i wish i were at home.
cause i cant do anythinq right now.
i need to go home.

决定

我很恨我自己，
做不到那个决定。
明明知道不适合，
却拉得也来也长。

每一次决定了，
每一次又是心软，
每一次自己折磨自己。

perfect time

what people see is the surface.
what i feel is way deeper.
afraid of what type of person will come to my life is not a fear.
as in the present, it is such a mess.


there's no reason to hold on to a string.
when loves are nowhere to be felt.

when words are nowhere to be useful.

it's a perfect time to end.

依然愛你 ♥

helloooooooo world =D
how're ya doinq?
me not so good, though still try to be positive =)

here is a sonq to be shared.
i'm so fallinq for this sonq.
i just cant stop repeatinq! omooooooooooo.
leehoooooooooooommmmmmmm >.<

一閃一閃亮晶晶
yi shan yi shan lianq jinq jinq
留下歲月的痕跡
liu xia sui yue de hen ji
我的世界的中心
wo de shi jie de zhonq xin
依然還是你
yi ran hai shi ni

一年一年又一年
yi nian yi nian you yi nian
飛逝僅在一轉眼
fei shi jin zai yi zhuan yan
唯一永遠不改變
wei yi yonq yuan bu gai bian
是不停地改變
shi bu tinq de gai bian

我不像從前的自己
wo bu xianq conq qian de ze ji
你也有點不像你
ni ye you dian bu xianq ni
但在我眼中你的笑 
dan zai wo yan zhonq ni de xiao
依然的美麗
yi ran de mei li

日子只能往前走
ri zi zhi nenq wanq qian zou
一個方向順時鐘
yi ge fanq xianq shun shi zhonq
不知道還有多久
bu zhi dao hai you duo jiu
所以要讓你懂
suo yi yau ranq ni donq


我依然愛你 就是 唯一的退路
wo yi ran ai ni jiu shi wei yi de tui lu
我依然珍惜 時時刻刻的幸福
wo yi ran zhen xi shi shi ke ke de xinq fu
你每個呼吸 每一個動作 每個表情 
ni mei ge hu xi mei yi ge donq zhuo mei ge biao qinq
到最後 一定會 
dao zui hou yi dinq hui
依然愛你
yi ran ai ni

我依然愛你 或許是 命中注定 
wo yi ran ai ni huo xu shi minq zhonq zhu dinq
多年之後 任何人都無法代替 
duo nian zhi hou ren he ren dou wu fa dai ti
那些時光是我這一輩子最美好的 
na xie shi guanq shi wo zhe yi bei zi zui mei hao de
那些回憶 依然無法忘記 
na xie hui yi yi ran wu fa wanq ji

我依然愛你 就是 唯一的退路
wo yi ran ai ni jiu shi wei yi de tui lu
我依然珍惜 時時刻刻的幸福
wo yi ran zhen xi shi shi ke ke de xinq fu
你每個呼吸 每一個動作 每個表情 
ni mei ge hu xi mei yi ge donq zhuo mei ge biao qinq
到最後 一定會 
dao zui hou yi dinq hui
依然愛你
yi ran ai ni

你每個呼吸 每一個動作 每個表情 
ni mei ge hu xi mei yi ge donq zhuo mei ge biao qinq
到永遠 一定會 
dao yonq yuan yi dinq hui
依然愛你
yi ran ai ni


leehom's sonq always reminds me to someone =)
hope you're doinq great there, as always.

hello october kitty :D

hello october.
not hopinq much for you to be great,
though, just be good please =)

uni life has been so depressing.
i knw i posted much about uni shit.
will try to be more positive than i ever be.

i knw i've been missing my school life much.
think everythinq is just too good back there =)
with nice friends everywhere.
dunno why, uni friends are different.
see, how can i not miss the old times? =)

naahh, let's not complaining again today, shall we?
though many bad thinqs hppnd in september,
it passed in a blink of eye.
october,
i just hope everythinq will go smoothly.
and i'll be nice to everyone no matter what.
it's my october aim =D

btw, anyone knows i heart hello kitty so much? ♥
i just googled it :D

it's so cuteeeeeeeeeeee >.<

hello kitty camera

can i have this bathroom? >.<

omo omo omoooooooooooo ><

I WANT THIS SPECS! ♥

cupcakes.

biscuit

hello kitty emoticons sticker!

it's so coolllllllllllllllllll! ♥

i will do this nail art later at hometown! seriously!

so many hello kitty. omooooooooooo ♥♥
october, rain me with hello kitty pleaseeeeeeeeeeeee ><