the changes.

ok. these 2 days i've been like someone crazy. huff.
do u ppl knw tht the first time i came here, i took a wronq degree?
i'm pretty sure tht i want to be an architect, not an interior designer.
i was thinkinq to take taylor at the first. bcause they're doinq melb u module. 
but then, global total offered me sth called interior architecture [IA].
learninq about interior n architecture at the same time, n i can take architect degree for master later.
so i thought, why didnt i go take tht course?
i cld learn 2 thinqs at the same time. why didnt i take tht? so i took the course.


n then, when i came here.
someone told me tht, IA is not wht i was thinkinq.
it's 30% architecture n 70% interior design.
at first, i thought, it's just some wronq news.
within week 4, i realized tht it's right. n i quickly go asked my family about this thinqs.
they said, it's up to me.
actually i alrd fitted in, but then my family said tht, just moved if i want to be architect.
so i moved. n then, architecture in limkokwinq got 2.
the limkokwinq cert n curtin cert.
the differences r, limkokwinq module only goes for 4-5 yrs, so it's a new one n costed 10k cheaper.
well. i dunno wht to take tht time.
just, i'm afraid if i take curtin one, n graduated beinq noone, then i surely spend a lot of money.
so i took the limkokwinq cert.


but half year has passed. i'm in sem2.
n sddnly, the teacher said, u r the first badge.
i was like, wht? but i saw like year 3 time table.
so i didnt really give a damn. thus, i stayed.
but then, i knw some facts. n ohmygod.
i called my sis, n then she said, she'll asked my dad.
n my dad called me. n then, ok, u go chnge.


so this is what i'm doinq these days.
n i hv to rush my assignments! ohmygod. haixx.
i dunno whether i'm takinq the right choice or not.
hopefully i'll be a real architect. hopefully. huhuhu. 

❤ first date ❤

yes yes, yesterday i was pissed off.

dunno. is it i'm too sensitive? >:(

you said i've been this sensitive since last week after goinq out together with her.

probably yes.

cause i can see that she has a crush on u.

u urself feel it what =='

but still mostly go out with her.

HOW CAN I NOT BE JEALOUS? >:[

ok, just skip tht.

today, thnk u for accompanyinq me to BB. AGAIN =.=

n it cld be said to be our first datee. weqq. hahah :DD

tht stupid laptop must be recovered please after all of my sacrifices! huhhuuhh.

but if cannot, hellooooooo vaio! wkkwkkw.

today hv so much fun actually.

but yeahh, he's a little upset with my attitude for beinq such sensitive.

sorry baobeii :p

still thnk u. hihihi.

wht i'm so funny about is, u said noone has ever scolded u like tht.

if even ur momma scolds u like tht, u wont keep silent.

but u do it for me. HAHAHHAA.

cupppppp.

hope i can manage my feelinq soon, dont get jealous againn :p

the KFC was niceeeeee! hahhha.

i tried the cheezy chickaroni. quite nice lehh :D

ok lahh, really wanna go home alrd!

shld yell to the FDI kids alrd. hhahah.

9z".

love youuuuuuu xaiianqqqqqqqqqqqqqqqqq ❤

thank you iaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhh XD

A BIG THANK YOU!

yeah, yeah. i knew it.
n still, these fingers did type it again.
ok, now u've seen it. HAPPY?
n YOU.
THANK YOU FOR RUINING IT. AGAIN.
A BIG BIG THANK YOU! 

thnk u ❤

thnk u for never thinkinq of givinq up on me.
even sometimes, i'm just too 不可理喻. hahha.
wht's the english anyw?


yeah, i knw.
we often fight.
i hope it wont be anymore after the talkinq last 9.
love u  ❤

pointless.

it's no point at all.
i dunno how many times i shld cry in a week.
u're not sorry.
u're really not.
u keep on sayinq sorry, but u dont think it's ur fault.
so wht is tht sorry for?


everytime u make mistakes. i tell u.
but eventhough u said sorry, it's ur fault.
u nv understand. u nv do.
u nv think of me whn u do sth.
u knw i wont be happy, tht's why u keep askinq me whether i'm ok or not, or sayinq u love me n stuff like tht, but u're still doinq it.
u urself typed it, love doesnt need words, but needs action.
ask urself.
is it more sorry or more changinq?
it's been 2 mnths u knw.
ok, a month since i came here n the problems start.
a month.
i dunno.
30 days, 20 days of fightinq?


u said tht sentence.
sometimes friend is still better than lover.
it's really really useless after all of my patience. isnt it? 

FINE.

"I'm tired of being I'm-fine-don't-worry-about-me. Try to be me once, u'll know how FINE I am."

get this quote from twitter.
really like it.
just really suits. hahah.

aih aihh.

read someone's blog today.
made me feel uneasy actually.
well. i've been tryinq to fixinq it. i do.
but u knw him, he's really stubborn.
still, i'll try my best :)



told son a story today. n he got upset. hahhha.
quite funny actually.
but that means he cares, right?

a big big thnk u! :D

today after class, i was supposed to go to sleep.
considerinq, i really dont get enough sleep for these days.
yet, i ended up registerinq for formsprinq n twitter =.=
yeah, yeah, n i didnt take a nap. AGAIN.


n hey!

i miss u, i miss u, i miss u >.<

really hope to hug u just now u knw :(
but it's impossible. hahhah.
n thnk u for accompanyinq.
u shldnt leave ur group discussion! hahhha.
but thnk u :D 
hope u get well soon dear.
cupp cuppp.
love u XD

formspring.me

ask me anything http://formspring.me/miaothestrangee

love u :)

hey. i'm happy the matter between us is solved alrd :D
n i hope, thr wont be anthr fight for the same reason again.


to tell u the truth, i'm happy tht u made a blog.
i feel like, by readinq ur blog, i feel more realistic with ur love.
n also, i can knw wht u're thinkinq :)


this afternoon.
i can feel tht.
every second i spend with u is really precious.
u asked me, why do i keep starinq at u?
cause i love u baobeii XD
tht time, i was thinkinq.
how good if the time stopped tickinq,
so i can be by ur side forever n alwys :)


love u :)

...

maybe this is it.
the feelinq of desperate.
i felt nth at the first, cldnt even cry.
but then cried unstoppably.

❤ happy white day :D ❤

we've only started it for a month plus
but, i'd really love to tell u that
thank you for always being there for me
thank you for always thinking bout me
thank you for always trying to understand me
thank you for making me feel like i'm worth to be loved
thank you
and
sorry to be so childish sometimes
sorry to be so demanding sometimes
sorry to be so slow sometimes
sorry to make you keep repeating your words
sorry

eventhough sometimes
i'm really upset with you
and feel like
i'm so tired and enough for all of your sorries
yet
i will always try my best
to forgive and to understand
'cause
you're the first
and
i really hope
you'll be the last n the one
and also
to be by my side forever and always :)

i love you
i love you
i love you

happy white day my dearest dearest one :D

bored.

wew. i feel bored alrd with my skin =='
i'll chnge it later. hahhaha.
so, b4 it, i think i wont update anythinq first o.

you're not sorry.

i dont know how many times i've repeated this sonq n shed my tears.
i feel, this sonq really suits me.
just i dont hv even half of the courage to take that decision.
try it. it's a really nice sonq.
but i dont know why i can't put it. maybe you go try search yourself. 

You're Not Sorry by Taylor Swift

All this time I was wasting
Hoping you would come around
I've been giving out chances every time
And all you do is let me down

And it's taking me this long
Baby but I figured you out
And you're thinking we'll be fine again
But not this time around

You don't have to call anymore
I won't pick up the phone
This is the last straw
Don't wanna hurt anymore

And you can say that you're sorry
But I don't believe you baby
Like I did before
You're not sorry, no, no, no, no

Looking so innocent
I might believe you if I didn't know
Could've loved you all my life
If you hadn't left me waiting in the cold

And you got your share of secrets
And I'm tired of being last to know
And now you're asking me to listen
Cause it's worked each time before

But you don't have to call anymore
I won't pick up the phone
This is the last straw
Don't wanna hurt anymore

And you can tell me that you're sorry
But I don't believe you baby
Like I did before
You're not sorry, no, no, oh
You're not sorry, no, no, oh

You had me falling for you honey
And it never would've gone away, no
You used to shine so bright
But I watched all of it fade

So you don't have to call anymore
I won't pick up the phone
This is the last straw
There's nothing left to beg for

And you can tell me that you're sorry
But I don't believe you baby
Like I did before
You're not sorry, no, no, oh
You're not sorry, no, no, oh
No, oh, no, oh, no oh
Whoa, no, no

p.s: dont shed ur tears, for those who r really worth it wont make u cry -- dixon suhaimi.

himhimhim.

well, today shld be the first day of my class, but sddnly my class is chnged to thursday.
so i'll be free every monday =))
yah, quite happy bcause last time, monday class was at night, whr prbbly thr was no bus anymore n i had to pay for taxi to go hm, n the worst one if i was alone. considering faisal still needs to take the sem1 modules that he skipped.
but then talking to yvonne n sem, all of us think it's a bit waste. bcause last time we had two classes at night, n now they change it to one ONLY in the afternoon. n the night classes are for curtin's students. why shld they differentiate it so hard? =='


well, it's about 1. i shld hv been sleepinq cause i got class on 9 tmrw morninq =(
dunno wht class is tht, forgot alrd.
but i feel like, i wanna share things with u, bloggie >.<
it's about him.
today i went to visit him at his new house.
quite nice actually. just, yeah, as wht i said, i dnt like the bus stop. for me, it's too far.
+ the dininq place. hv to walk like from sut to thmrin? hahhah.
yah, we're doinq normal thinqs at his place, watchinq the 'we are the world' new video for haiti ppl n he introduced me to 'everytime we touch' by cascada.
it's a very nice sonq. i like it =))
oh iaah, n he gave me sth he bought in gentinq with his fam last cny. it's cute, n it's white. love it. hahahha.
n then i saw at his sis pic, they also got each for one, named bebe n chloe.
i'll upload the pic later =]


out of evrythnq he does that makes me feel loved, i still feel unsecured.
i dunno why, but i do ='(
sometimes, he makes me feel like, he's not ready for this relationship.
he makes me feel so.
i knw, we've talked about it, not to expose the relationship. cause he's afraid tht his youngest sis will tell his mom n considerinq he feels his parents won't really allow him to be in a relationship first.
but how bout here? or to my besties?
like, he's not gonna admit i'm SOMEBODY in front of ANYONE.
yeah, i feel a little sad bout it.
it's not like i want to expose this relationship n let the whole world knw, but just, actinq like tht, makes me feel unsecured =(
am i too demandinq?
i love u 宝贝 >.<
yes, i feel afraid bcause we strted it so quick, but i love u. no doubt of it.
i really want to be sure about this, but, i'm still live in world of uncertainty.
whn i feel bad, n don't wanna talk bout it, u'll force me to speak out wht i'm thinkinq.
but whn i want to speak out n asked u just now, u're like, why u ask so many qs?
let me ans, it's bcause of this uncertain n insecured feelinq inside.


huff. finished.
feel better now. thnk u bloggie =)
wish i can kick this feelinq far far faaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaarrrrrrrrrr awayy!